Well, that passage still frightened the hell out of me. And 18-year retreat? With no breaks? I mean, I knew that's what it was, but to have it spelled out like that... chilling. At least for me.

I haven't even lived my own life yet, thanks to mental illness and all the other crap I've done (more accurately, haven't done) through my 20s. I've got 10 years to reclaim!